Rhymes of Release.

"Listen to the mind, hear the soul,
heres to the thoughts that I never spoke.
Whispering tree in a blowing wind,
unheard voice to a false content."



Been a while since i updated this blog. I don't really have much to write about, but a a homie keeps telling me to post, so ill get something down. I've written a lot of "poetry" down on my phone whenever i was bored, frustrated, or just needed to write. I'll post some of what i've wrote below (only the ones i really like), also as a security measure so that i don't lose my writing if i ever lose my phone.

Putting them in chronological order by month.



December

1. Incomplete

Daydream a lil in the afternoon sun,
to see to the end what has already begun.

Close your eyes to seek the imagination,
original creations without limitation.

Lyrical search within heart and soul,
walk on a road that I don't even know.

Spoken recipe, onomatopoeia,
correct technique on the path ill see ya.

See you in the sky if our roads don't cross,
life's still young not a lifeless bust.



2. A Real Smile comes from the Eyes

A real smile comes from the eyes,
fantasize about, memory highs.

Euphoric collision from my heart to yours,
a rainbow that beautiful never seen before.

Ordinary Joes to glam whores,
contrary to belief, I'm neither or.

Felt personal resolution align on a straight line till you be mine.

Hoes be jumping saying I've changed,
I'm a different man, but I'm the same.

I'm the king, she's still my queen,
but who is she?

Change the scene.

Change the dream I'm not feeling C.R.E.A.M.,
off a long ways in the mountain scene.

Sunrise hits me and you beside,
reflected happiness dazzled in your eyes.



November

3. You, Her, Elle, She.

These days these thoughts be like second nature,
every moment awake my mind remakes.
You her elle she a handful i see,
spin the wheel to see who it be.
Start with a J then u got K,
spin it around B and another K.
Incentives to select with all due respect,
I love Her You and Ima flirt.
Mind full of info I'm the clerk,
smiles wit a dimple, going berserk.
She got no wrinkles but plenty of curves and Elle got the magic to make me hurt.
Shit.. I dunno,
who has my heart and who has my soul.
Whose the angel with delicate wings,
with the glamorous aura whenever She sings,
and mind fills with wonder whenever She brings,
her lips to my ear and calls me king.



September

4. Sweet Memories

Put the track out from start to finish,
only at bedtime do i do this business.

The rap game call it the Golden Age,
you become the epitome of that phase.

Like the hourglass every second that went by
you carved a spot in my heart for life.

So when I miss you I'm also missing my youth,
Jr. to high school unlimited proof.

So easy to move on but hard to let go,
memories tragedies the wishes we hold.

At night, I still reminisce,
the passion for you I still possess.

Lying together with one arm under,
other arm touching is filled with wonder.

Caressing kissing we get carried away,
in a gentle night when the full moon sways.



5. Release (Nujabes influenced)

So much thoughts still left inside,
not a diss to you just trying not to lie.

The truth gots to come out before i let go,
words of old now metaphorical flow.

Times have changed all that I use to know,
memories adapt and happiness grows.

Long time no speak I smile and think,
a little bit smarter and alot wiser

and now, the time seems so right,
pondering as i followed the previous plight.

If I showed up at your door would you let me in?
As past lovers, but new tales begin.

Truth behold a lot of words untold,
but a treasured friendship is all it now is.

The sensual feeling of all that was,
relative harmony and a tingling buzz.



6. Love hurts, but Loneliness hurts more.

What i say usually lands me in trouble,
but Ima keep it honest so tired of being subtle.

I realized I loved you with everything,
you did too it wasn't just a fling.

But along the way other stars appeared,
glamour covered everything oh so dear.

Left me holding empty promises,
I love you always ain't how honest is.

Forever spans an eternity,
till the end our atoms still flow free.

Wishful thinking under the apple tree,
squeezed juices out and left me be.

Yet as the tree you could do it again,
every apple gone is replaced by ten.

Learned to let go before feelings grow,
enjoyed it all through the highs and lows.



r.wang

A real smile comes from the eyes.

I think this is gonna be my last blog post for a while, unless something unexpected happens. I'm getting lazy to do this and it takes up more of my spare time, and i realize somethings are better talked about to other people.

But one thing i gotta say to y'all is, trust ur intuition. I realized, in the past, when i had a premonition of some sort, that sort of gut feeling, it always turned out to be true; even when i was made to believe I was wrong.

Just trust ur instincts.
Ima keep trusting mine, and hope to make y'all smile for real :).

until next time.

r.wang

I'm Awake.

Alright shit, was gonna write this part last night but card reader ended up in my dads room and he was asleep. Well today after school, I sit down to upload my pictures and the card reader dies on me :(. Then i wasted another hour installing software for my camera so i could upload my delicious meal from last night.


grr. im too lazy to edit so click image for full size!

I ended up waking up at 5pm sunday, after the exhilirating saturday night. So at 3am, I got hungry. Made myself some noodles with egg and pork, fried some fries, had oil leftover so fried another egg and bread.

and for dessert =D





And today, shit. I went to mcdonalds with my dad after school, wasn't much food left at home. We didn't talk much cuz my dad had to rush off to class, but one thing he said kinda made me wake up. I was telling him how i dunno my purpose right now, and that i don't think i need math so im not working hard, therefore not doing good. And he told me: your purpose is to do good at what you HAVE to do right now. It was a simple statement, but it hit the spot. What the fuck have i been doing in the last month?

Shit. I'm awake now. But still groggy. Time to wash my face, brush my teeth, shower, and head out into the sunlight.

r.wang

Self-centered

I'm lazy,
I'm inconsiderate,
and I'm selfish.

But i don't like being played around with,
I don't like being made fun of,
and I don't like following a path leading nowhere.

Why can't interactions just be straight?
Why can't people just say what they wanna say?
I know sometimes i can't.

:) experimentations were fun, but i think I'm done that too.
live night.
Happy Belated B-Day party Mr. Jay Namkung!

r.wang

I sit.

Friday edit: I'm hella confused.. are these feelings?

I sit here, thinking.

I miss something. I dunno what, i dunno who.

but i miss something.

is it you?

r.wang

Ferrero Rocher

Ahh. I was planning to write about a philosophical issue or about Hypebeast today, but i ended up slacking now I don't feel like writing about either.

To keep it simple and short, If I eat another Ferrero Rocher chocolate, I'm gonna have a dam nose bleed. I feel it already, but its so GOOOOOOOD!

Fuck school for now. I'll focus again after winter break. Time to start enjoying myself and read Slam Dunk once through again! I love mangas =D

Song of the moment:

Pistol Grip Pump by Rage Against The Machine
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RRkvg_LuZvk

sweet dreams!
r.wang

Foreign.

Any of you guys reading ever have a shift of state of mind, to the point that, although you're still doing the same things you do everyday, everything feels different? Foreign in a sense?

Life's still the same old. Wake up, do my things, go to school, chill, come home, do w/e, sleep and the cycle repeats. But it all feels different. Shit, I'm not getting any work done, thats one thing, but food tastes different now too, and thats fucked. I fucking love food, and im not fucking enjoying it. Man, getting confused about the future and emotions is one thing, but if i can't even enjoy my food, wdf?

I can't believe how much one person can affect me, especially when i thouhgt i didn't like her that way. I guess in a way, I'm not mad at the relationship, but mad at the surprise of it. I mean, when you think someones special, and you imagine they feel the same, then something that they do hits you without even a warning, its like, the fuck? the fuck.. the FUCK!

And shit music night was tiring, but pretty fun. September not the hardest song in the world, but fun to play =D. and one more night tmr. I'm looking forward to Chris, Jay, Johnny, Steven, and Sam perform. Need to hear these pros :)

and talking to Pan got me thinking bout Battle of the Bands again. That was, a mind blowing experience. I've never let things out that way before, and it felt great. I loved it. I fucking loved it and i fucking wanna do it again.

my bad for all the fucks, just feeling the word right now, and feeling this song.

Song of the moment:

The Love Song by K-OS
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RyRB00Xe5-E


Alright, lets see if i can get some Economics done. Night everyone!

r.wang

Jarhead.

Contract the Flames pain gain achieved the same thing,
as I reiterate the same name over again.
Hearing the sweet voice memories achieved,
as my mind deceives with false hopes and imagery.

r.wang

What a day.

Drake himself put it best on Missing You (Remix) - Trey Songz:

Im scared that every girl i care for
Will find a better man and end up happier in the long run
Ya, and when she not by my side
And i hear that she gone
Now its like a shock to my pride
I dont care if she know
Cuz thats basically just a male ego
Speaking aloud to some real people.


well, definitely a paradigm shift today.

and thank you for calling. I don't need to mention names but if your reading this, thank you. I'm sorry i was busy and couldn't talk for long.

Sometimes i wish i could be heartless. Then i wouldn't be fucking myself over.
Be a jerk, fuck around, have fun, not worry.

but qing's right and thank you for the thoughtful comment. Perhaps good things come out of pressure; perhaps happiness is found in places least expected.

To the glorious land.

r.wang

one-point-five / three.

Here we go again.. :)

Well the day started kinda bad, slept early and woke up nice and refreshed =D. and then i realized i forgot i had Stage band practice... forgot last week too. no practice next week so no way i can forget haha. Next, we got report cards first period. 85% average =/. I already knew i was getting that but it was a bummer anyways. Time to work harder. Other than that, rest of the day was ok. Still selling tickets for DANCE at lunch. So if ur reading this and u haven't bought it, GO AND GET IT!!!! A.Y. annual dance gonna be THIS FRIDAY starting at 7:00 pm. =D

Hmm, lately i seem to have an affection for FRIED CHICKEN. I want Popeyes or KFC really badly. Tmr after school maybe?

On to the next, My A.P.C's are still so god dam tight. For those that dunno, their jeans. I haven't been on Hypebeast much lately, but decided to check today. and seeing this faded pair, dam. To those who dunno about raw denim, the pair below was pure indigo at one point.



I want an indigo pair of Imperials really badly now. My black pair still doing me good, but an indigo one now would be nice too =D. Sighs.. too bad i gotta either buy online or go to New York or San Francisco or Australia to get them. Christmas maybe?

haha my Economics quiz got cancelled =D, probably the only reason i even have time to do this right now.

mm :( After talking to Ms. B.S. (aha bs XD) on the phone, I wanna play ball again, as in play a lot more. It's something i love to do, but so much academic work. I wish i could go to a school where we could focus on any area of our interest =D. What a fantasy eh?

As for the title, 1.5/3. Three has been my lucky number for as long as I can remember (it was 13 for a while for other reasons but meh). Right now, I feel half of what I am, so 1.5 out of 3 haha? Maybe i need to begin adding back to myself, or maybe i need someone to complete my 3 ;D.

Think That'll be all today. I'll begin making posts with more substance later on. Might start focusing more on basketball and streetwear in my posts, and in real life too =D.


r.wang

On the outer edge, looking in?

Hmm.. I've read quite a few blogs in the past, but never really thought i would start my own. Quite a few predicaments have arised in the past weeks, and whether it's actual or intangible, it's definitely caused me to experience "mood swings" recently. I like writing, and i thought, why not use it as an outlet?

Over the weekend, I jokingly brought up the possibility of me having ADD to my parents. What i got first was ridicule and anger, followed an hour later by a lecture about how everyone goes through such a phase; how not being able to concentrate on work was normal; how i need to stop making excuses for my lack of focus.

Well, part of me agrees. Even if i was to have some kind of disorder, I'd rather not admit it and fight my way through it. Take control of my life, my mind, and command to do such and such. On the other hand, it would definitely be relief to know there is actually a reason beyond my control as to why I'm not performing to my full potential.

And today in the morning in accounting class, Mrs. Cipolla asked me to come outside to talk for a second. I thought i was in trouble, but i didn't know for what reason. First thing she asked me was "are you ok?" That sorta stunned me for a second lol. I guess my prevalent drop in marks and participation raised some concern, and knowing that she cared was kinda touching. So i ended up explaining a bit of my recent confusion and she mentioned mood swings could be signs of depression.

haha, do i seem depressed? I dunno, maybe sometimes.. but either way, its definitely nice knowing there's people in the world that care (including FATTIE WANG :P). I don't think ill ever forget Mrs. Cipolla; crazy, jubilant, dominant, cranky, and loving teacher =D.

On a happier note, congratz to the Seniors boys basketball team for winning their first game :). I ended up watching the ending after SAC meeting, tried to look for someone but my eyes too bad, i should wear my glasses.. Ah well, at least i got "A Walk to Remember" to entertain me this week.

I wanna visit Australia.

Cheers to my first blog!
Math time :(

r.wang