Jarhead.

Contract the Flames pain gain achieved the same thing,
as I reiterate the same name over again.
Hearing the sweet voice memories achieved,
as my mind deceives with false hopes and imagery.

r.wang

What a day.

Drake himself put it best on Missing You (Remix) - Trey Songz:

Im scared that every girl i care for
Will find a better man and end up happier in the long run
Ya, and when she not by my side
And i hear that she gone
Now its like a shock to my pride
I dont care if she know
Cuz thats basically just a male ego
Speaking aloud to some real people.


well, definitely a paradigm shift today.

and thank you for calling. I don't need to mention names but if your reading this, thank you. I'm sorry i was busy and couldn't talk for long.

Sometimes i wish i could be heartless. Then i wouldn't be fucking myself over.
Be a jerk, fuck around, have fun, not worry.

but qing's right and thank you for the thoughtful comment. Perhaps good things come out of pressure; perhaps happiness is found in places least expected.

To the glorious land.

r.wang

one-point-five / three.

Here we go again.. :)

Well the day started kinda bad, slept early and woke up nice and refreshed =D. and then i realized i forgot i had Stage band practice... forgot last week too. no practice next week so no way i can forget haha. Next, we got report cards first period. 85% average =/. I already knew i was getting that but it was a bummer anyways. Time to work harder. Other than that, rest of the day was ok. Still selling tickets for DANCE at lunch. So if ur reading this and u haven't bought it, GO AND GET IT!!!! A.Y. annual dance gonna be THIS FRIDAY starting at 7:00 pm. =D

Hmm, lately i seem to have an affection for FRIED CHICKEN. I want Popeyes or KFC really badly. Tmr after school maybe?

On to the next, My A.P.C's are still so god dam tight. For those that dunno, their jeans. I haven't been on Hypebeast much lately, but decided to check today. and seeing this faded pair, dam. To those who dunno about raw denim, the pair below was pure indigo at one point.



I want an indigo pair of Imperials really badly now. My black pair still doing me good, but an indigo one now would be nice too =D. Sighs.. too bad i gotta either buy online or go to New York or San Francisco or Australia to get them. Christmas maybe?

haha my Economics quiz got cancelled =D, probably the only reason i even have time to do this right now.

mm :( After talking to Ms. B.S. (aha bs XD) on the phone, I wanna play ball again, as in play a lot more. It's something i love to do, but so much academic work. I wish i could go to a school where we could focus on any area of our interest =D. What a fantasy eh?

As for the title, 1.5/3. Three has been my lucky number for as long as I can remember (it was 13 for a while for other reasons but meh). Right now, I feel half of what I am, so 1.5 out of 3 haha? Maybe i need to begin adding back to myself, or maybe i need someone to complete my 3 ;D.

Think That'll be all today. I'll begin making posts with more substance later on. Might start focusing more on basketball and streetwear in my posts, and in real life too =D.


r.wang

On the outer edge, looking in?

Hmm.. I've read quite a few blogs in the past, but never really thought i would start my own. Quite a few predicaments have arised in the past weeks, and whether it's actual or intangible, it's definitely caused me to experience "mood swings" recently. I like writing, and i thought, why not use it as an outlet?

Over the weekend, I jokingly brought up the possibility of me having ADD to my parents. What i got first was ridicule and anger, followed an hour later by a lecture about how everyone goes through such a phase; how not being able to concentrate on work was normal; how i need to stop making excuses for my lack of focus.

Well, part of me agrees. Even if i was to have some kind of disorder, I'd rather not admit it and fight my way through it. Take control of my life, my mind, and command to do such and such. On the other hand, it would definitely be relief to know there is actually a reason beyond my control as to why I'm not performing to my full potential.

And today in the morning in accounting class, Mrs. Cipolla asked me to come outside to talk for a second. I thought i was in trouble, but i didn't know for what reason. First thing she asked me was "are you ok?" That sorta stunned me for a second lol. I guess my prevalent drop in marks and participation raised some concern, and knowing that she cared was kinda touching. So i ended up explaining a bit of my recent confusion and she mentioned mood swings could be signs of depression.

haha, do i seem depressed? I dunno, maybe sometimes.. but either way, its definitely nice knowing there's people in the world that care (including FATTIE WANG :P). I don't think ill ever forget Mrs. Cipolla; crazy, jubilant, dominant, cranky, and loving teacher =D.

On a happier note, congratz to the Seniors boys basketball team for winning their first game :). I ended up watching the ending after SAC meeting, tried to look for someone but my eyes too bad, i should wear my glasses.. Ah well, at least i got "A Walk to Remember" to entertain me this week.

I wanna visit Australia.

Cheers to my first blog!
Math time :(

r.wang