Rhymes of Release.

"Listen to the mind, hear the soul,
heres to the thoughts that I never spoke.
Whispering tree in a blowing wind,
unheard voice to a false content."



Been a while since i updated this blog. I don't really have much to write about, but a a homie keeps telling me to post, so ill get something down. I've written a lot of "poetry" down on my phone whenever i was bored, frustrated, or just needed to write. I'll post some of what i've wrote below (only the ones i really like), also as a security measure so that i don't lose my writing if i ever lose my phone.

Putting them in chronological order by month.



December

1. Incomplete

Daydream a lil in the afternoon sun,
to see to the end what has already begun.

Close your eyes to seek the imagination,
original creations without limitation.

Lyrical search within heart and soul,
walk on a road that I don't even know.

Spoken recipe, onomatopoeia,
correct technique on the path ill see ya.

See you in the sky if our roads don't cross,
life's still young not a lifeless bust.



2. A Real Smile comes from the Eyes

A real smile comes from the eyes,
fantasize about, memory highs.

Euphoric collision from my heart to yours,
a rainbow that beautiful never seen before.

Ordinary Joes to glam whores,
contrary to belief, I'm neither or.

Felt personal resolution align on a straight line till you be mine.

Hoes be jumping saying I've changed,
I'm a different man, but I'm the same.

I'm the king, she's still my queen,
but who is she?

Change the scene.

Change the dream I'm not feeling C.R.E.A.M.,
off a long ways in the mountain scene.

Sunrise hits me and you beside,
reflected happiness dazzled in your eyes.



November

3. You, Her, Elle, She.

These days these thoughts be like second nature,
every moment awake my mind remakes.
You her elle she a handful i see,
spin the wheel to see who it be.
Start with a J then u got K,
spin it around B and another K.
Incentives to select with all due respect,
I love Her You and Ima flirt.
Mind full of info I'm the clerk,
smiles wit a dimple, going berserk.
She got no wrinkles but plenty of curves and Elle got the magic to make me hurt.
Shit.. I dunno,
who has my heart and who has my soul.
Whose the angel with delicate wings,
with the glamorous aura whenever She sings,
and mind fills with wonder whenever She brings,
her lips to my ear and calls me king.



September

4. Sweet Memories

Put the track out from start to finish,
only at bedtime do i do this business.

The rap game call it the Golden Age,
you become the epitome of that phase.

Like the hourglass every second that went by
you carved a spot in my heart for life.

So when I miss you I'm also missing my youth,
Jr. to high school unlimited proof.

So easy to move on but hard to let go,
memories tragedies the wishes we hold.

At night, I still reminisce,
the passion for you I still possess.

Lying together with one arm under,
other arm touching is filled with wonder.

Caressing kissing we get carried away,
in a gentle night when the full moon sways.



5. Release (Nujabes influenced)

So much thoughts still left inside,
not a diss to you just trying not to lie.

The truth gots to come out before i let go,
words of old now metaphorical flow.

Times have changed all that I use to know,
memories adapt and happiness grows.

Long time no speak I smile and think,
a little bit smarter and alot wiser

and now, the time seems so right,
pondering as i followed the previous plight.

If I showed up at your door would you let me in?
As past lovers, but new tales begin.

Truth behold a lot of words untold,
but a treasured friendship is all it now is.

The sensual feeling of all that was,
relative harmony and a tingling buzz.



6. Love hurts, but Loneliness hurts more.

What i say usually lands me in trouble,
but Ima keep it honest so tired of being subtle.

I realized I loved you with everything,
you did too it wasn't just a fling.

But along the way other stars appeared,
glamour covered everything oh so dear.

Left me holding empty promises,
I love you always ain't how honest is.

Forever spans an eternity,
till the end our atoms still flow free.

Wishful thinking under the apple tree,
squeezed juices out and left me be.

Yet as the tree you could do it again,
every apple gone is replaced by ten.

Learned to let go before feelings grow,
enjoyed it all through the highs and lows.



r.wang

A real smile comes from the eyes.

I think this is gonna be my last blog post for a while, unless something unexpected happens. I'm getting lazy to do this and it takes up more of my spare time, and i realize somethings are better talked about to other people.

But one thing i gotta say to y'all is, trust ur intuition. I realized, in the past, when i had a premonition of some sort, that sort of gut feeling, it always turned out to be true; even when i was made to believe I was wrong.

Just trust ur instincts.
Ima keep trusting mine, and hope to make y'all smile for real :).

until next time.

r.wang

I'm Awake.

Alright shit, was gonna write this part last night but card reader ended up in my dads room and he was asleep. Well today after school, I sit down to upload my pictures and the card reader dies on me :(. Then i wasted another hour installing software for my camera so i could upload my delicious meal from last night.


grr. im too lazy to edit so click image for full size!

I ended up waking up at 5pm sunday, after the exhilirating saturday night. So at 3am, I got hungry. Made myself some noodles with egg and pork, fried some fries, had oil leftover so fried another egg and bread.

and for dessert =D





And today, shit. I went to mcdonalds with my dad after school, wasn't much food left at home. We didn't talk much cuz my dad had to rush off to class, but one thing he said kinda made me wake up. I was telling him how i dunno my purpose right now, and that i don't think i need math so im not working hard, therefore not doing good. And he told me: your purpose is to do good at what you HAVE to do right now. It was a simple statement, but it hit the spot. What the fuck have i been doing in the last month?

Shit. I'm awake now. But still groggy. Time to wash my face, brush my teeth, shower, and head out into the sunlight.

r.wang

Self-centered

I'm lazy,
I'm inconsiderate,
and I'm selfish.

But i don't like being played around with,
I don't like being made fun of,
and I don't like following a path leading nowhere.

Why can't interactions just be straight?
Why can't people just say what they wanna say?
I know sometimes i can't.

:) experimentations were fun, but i think I'm done that too.
live night.
Happy Belated B-Day party Mr. Jay Namkung!

r.wang

I sit.

Friday edit: I'm hella confused.. are these feelings?

I sit here, thinking.

I miss something. I dunno what, i dunno who.

but i miss something.

is it you?

r.wang

Ferrero Rocher

Ahh. I was planning to write about a philosophical issue or about Hypebeast today, but i ended up slacking now I don't feel like writing about either.

To keep it simple and short, If I eat another Ferrero Rocher chocolate, I'm gonna have a dam nose bleed. I feel it already, but its so GOOOOOOOD!

Fuck school for now. I'll focus again after winter break. Time to start enjoying myself and read Slam Dunk once through again! I love mangas =D

Song of the moment:

Pistol Grip Pump by Rage Against The Machine
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RRkvg_LuZvk

sweet dreams!
r.wang

Foreign.

Any of you guys reading ever have a shift of state of mind, to the point that, although you're still doing the same things you do everyday, everything feels different? Foreign in a sense?

Life's still the same old. Wake up, do my things, go to school, chill, come home, do w/e, sleep and the cycle repeats. But it all feels different. Shit, I'm not getting any work done, thats one thing, but food tastes different now too, and thats fucked. I fucking love food, and im not fucking enjoying it. Man, getting confused about the future and emotions is one thing, but if i can't even enjoy my food, wdf?

I can't believe how much one person can affect me, especially when i thouhgt i didn't like her that way. I guess in a way, I'm not mad at the relationship, but mad at the surprise of it. I mean, when you think someones special, and you imagine they feel the same, then something that they do hits you without even a warning, its like, the fuck? the fuck.. the FUCK!

And shit music night was tiring, but pretty fun. September not the hardest song in the world, but fun to play =D. and one more night tmr. I'm looking forward to Chris, Jay, Johnny, Steven, and Sam perform. Need to hear these pros :)

and talking to Pan got me thinking bout Battle of the Bands again. That was, a mind blowing experience. I've never let things out that way before, and it felt great. I loved it. I fucking loved it and i fucking wanna do it again.

my bad for all the fucks, just feeling the word right now, and feeling this song.

Song of the moment:

The Love Song by K-OS
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RyRB00Xe5-E


Alright, lets see if i can get some Economics done. Night everyone!

r.wang